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Friday, 23 January 2009

  • Is It Because He's Black?

    I had the awesome opportunity of witnessing the Inauguration of our new President Barack Obama. Post inaugural bliss, I began to think about those that are not in favor of our new president. Of course, everyone is entitled to their own opinions, beliefs, and what not. After all, it is the freedom to choose that makes us dynamic as individuals.

    With all that said, there is one undeniable difference between our new President and those of the past. His race. So those that are not supporters of Obama, or have insight to non-supporters, I ask you to be honest about what you feel. Is your dislike for Obama due to your cynicism on his executive capabilities, or does it stem from your deeply imbedded stereotypical beliefs about black people?

    I understand the fear that a white person might have. I mean, the man in charge of running this country is essential African American. And although people like to point out that he is half white (which is also important), the truth is that had he not graduated from Colombia, had he not been articulate with unwaivering confidence with a conceptually "American dream" type of family, many would just call him black.

    Since he can't be associated with the negative connotations of being black: gang banger, drug dealer, absent father... Suddenly, America wants to count the other 'half' when they've never wanted to before.

    Honestly, I don't care if white America wants their 50% this time. I don't care if people refused to vote for him because he's black. It just shows how archaic the paradigms are of the people we live among. In the end, I find joy in knowing that those people are now in the minority!

    I'd love to read your thoughts!

Monday, 22 December 2008

  • A Hit Below the Belt

    I have been told that I am somewhat of an cold and heartless bitch when it comes to being sensitive to other people's feelings, especially guys. It's bad enough that I like a different guy every other week, and I'm so into doing my own thing that actually being in a 'relationship' is not important to me at this point in my life.

    Regardless of my personality flaws, there are a few things that are for certain... There is no easy way to tell someone that you aren't interested.

    Many may disagree, but I am a firm believer that when something is put politely people miss the point. For example, I've been friends with this guy for over a year, and I've told him in various ways that we would never be together because he didn't have what I was looking for. He didn't get the point until I told him that we would never be together because I wasn't "sexually attracted" to him.

    It was a blow to his ego and he was really upset (rightfully so), but if I TRY to be polite and you don't get the point...prepare yourself for a blow below the belt.

    I think it's fair, but what do you think? Isn't there a time when being polite just doesn't work anymore?

Saturday, 20 December 2008

  • Missing a whole lot of nothing.

    Missing... just for fun.

    Reason does not live here.

    Missing a whole lot of noone.

    I'm missing a whole lot of no one.

                           -LB 2008

Friday, 19 December 2008

  • Christmas is becoming a burden!!!!!!

     

    Am I the only one that feels like Christmas is a burden this year? I mean...I'm flat out broke, I have like four people to buy 'good' gifts for, and I still want to have money to 'play' while I'm at home for winter break. Shopping is becoming a real burden even though it's usually super fun. After all, I pride myself on being the best gift giver...but not this holiday season. I spend more time calculating cost in my head and determining the best deal than actually finding gifts. This Christmas I'm sleeping in and watching Home Alone.

    I mean...when did the presents part become so important? It's ridiculous ,which is why Thanksgiving is and will ALWAYS be my favorite holiday. It's so sincere. People eat and spend time. Nothing else. The world is sick, the economy is bad, but Christmas must still go on.

    So unfair!!!!

Thursday, 18 December 2008

  • Overdrawn Emotional Bank Account

    Friends are easily the most important people in your life. They are the people you select to be apart of your chosen family. You trust them, because they've proven themselves trustworthy. You grow together and learn together. Easily, the most memorable times of your life have taken place with your closest friends. 

    Sometimes the friendships aren't so fun. Sometimes they are lots of work. Sometimes she needs you to be there when she is in a bad relationship, or when she is thinking of hurting herself, or when she just needs someone to boost her self-esteem, because it is lower than it has ever been. It is in those times, that you find yourself giving everything you've got for little in return, but it's okay because you know that one day you'll need her to be there. The expectation is that she'll do for you as you did for her.

    Only, she is so consumed by her never ending problems that she can't be the friend to you that you've been to her. So while you are faced with challenges you've never experienced before, she just abandons you leaving you there with nothing but a broken friendship and problems of her own.

    It sounds ridiculous. It really does. The truth is...I've never had my heart broken by a guy I cared about but I've had my heart broken by my best friend. My emotional bank account is overdrawn, and I no longer want to have anything to do with her. I'm good at pretending it's all okay, but I'm too the point where I want to walk away.

    If you've had similar experiences, think I'm being dramatic, or want to leave a comment I'd love to read them.

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